Once again in Dec i was admitted to the hosptial..this time only for 3 days but i got out the day before christmas eve
I was told at that time the only way to fix me was to have surgery.
The closest Doctor to me that knows about my issue in 2-3 hours away
there is a hospital that could help bust doesnt take my insurance,
I could fight with them but dont want to.


I've been having a lot of pain recently that gets worse after i eat which sucks.But I guess ill deal with it until i get to the other doctor.


But other then that ive just been working a lot and not really being on a real computer.I mostly use my phone but I'm going to try to be more active here..I miss it

Sorry Ive been one for sooo long

Ive been so busy with work and other things

I spent from Oct 7 to Oct 11 in the hospital
I had been throwing up.I was extremely dizzy,i was Nauseous even after nausea meds. I'm pretty sure i passed out.
I even got sent home from work but tried to work the next day but at lunch i was so dizzy and shakey
that i woke my mom up to take me to the ER and after being there they decided to admit me.

After a CAT scan in the ER and an MRI after i was admitted they found out my Pancreas didnt devlope right
when my organs were forming before i was born

I have something called Pancreas Divisum

You're almost 3 years old!

How i wish you were here with me.I would give up my sleep and anything else i could just to have you here with me

Even just to see you for a moment would make me happy.

if i had thought sooner i would have fought for custody of you.Instead me and mommy have no idea where you are.If your happy,If your healthy.If your with someone who loves you like we do.

You deserve the best baby boy and i hope you have it.

Happy Third Birthday William

Me and mommy love you very much

William Benjamin

June 17, 2011

After a few months of thinking and some research
I came to the heartbreaking decision

I wont go into to detail here but if you want to know what lead me to this Note me

I figured out i have had not one not two but three Miscarriages
The name list was me trying to Name them..better late then never,right?

Going on my gut feeling it was two girls and a Boy
Gracie Lynn(2010) Scarlett Hope(2012) And Brantley Elijah(2011)

even though it took some time to figure this out,its always been a thought i had.Its hard to think i should have a 4 year old,a three year old and a two year old well two four year old(Mary) and two three year old's(William)

www.babynames.com/namelist/984…

Vote on which names you like please
I'll tell you what for after i made a choice